……..because it reveals A Person to me
by Ann Windsor
I spent 21 years of my life looking for Him.
Raised Catholic, my first personal encounter with The Person, Jesus, was when I received first holy communion, as it is called in that tradition. The expectation of ‘Jesus coming into my heart’ was built up through teaching and preparations for that event. I was so excited. He was going to be mine, and I was going to be His. I loved Jesus as much as a child of six could. He died for my sins. The story of His love was told to me many times.
After that event, I still had a problem: sin. And it came between me and my Savior and kept me from really knowing Him in any way but a formal religious experience. So my heart still searched.
“He who is WITH you shall be IN you”.
I did everything I religiously knew to do to keep a grip on Him. I would go to confession, get what I thought was clean before God, receive communion so I could get The Presence in my heart again. Sin always broke the ‘grip’ I was struggling so hard to maintain. And I would go through the process all over again, never being able to enjoy what I so desperately wanted: His Presence with me.
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